Hello beautiful people, i hope you have been okay and hanging in there. So, before you start reading this one, take a deep breath, close your eyes, surround your mind with your happy place. And…… Go!
I find myself often asking this question: Why does it still bother me what my ex thinks of me?
Well, it’s simple tbh. You somehow and somewhere deep down you still give a damn about him/her. You are asking yourself the wrong question, when you should be asking why do i give a damn about him/her.
You chose this didn’t you? You chose to walk away, you chose a life which you thought is the better option for you. Then why are you holding yourself back? Or what is holding you back?
You are latched onto that one last bolt that keeps you connected to him/her. It might be a gift, your dog(i know HIMYM ref here), maybe your t-shirt that smells like him/her,a scarf he bought you from his first trip to the mountains, the watch he gave on your 21st birthday. Don’t hold onto that. Let it go. The things that are painful, things that aren’t allowing you to heal, let it go.
Easier said then done, but we gotta start somewhere right? Start letting go before it haunts you back. If it’s meant to be, it’s gonna come crawling back. If not, you have something bigger waiting for you. Come back to yourself, your own soul misses you. Heal at your own speed, but don’t go jumping back in that hole.
God is testing you because you are capable of taking this, if you weren’t this strong, he wouldn’t have put you through this. Believe in yourself first, everything else will fall back. Take one day at a time.
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